horus831 Aug 2002

because it fucking pisses me off. i stick to my guns! god damnit! and i don't think you took the time to realy apprecite the work.and yes, but when am i not (i assume as real writers we still have balls! and cunt juice enough to really muster some courage to comprehend why we write?!){fuck, i'm not the first there's other people doing it here too} sensetive? your the fucking back bone, i'm the rib! and so what if you praised those fucking nasty old writings of mine...(just using the tools in front of me)i hate every fucking one of them because..i can now see through them...its hilarious...i was fucking kidding myself walking around talking about the power of poetry (23,24-year old's dreams), and i wasn't even scratching the surface! but now HAH! i've succumbed! dark angel and razorgrin pushed some of my buttons (month and a half ago in new york),and alot has changed, i have changed, i went broke, i'm scared shitless about my future and the future of my family, i don't sleep, i can't eat, i feel as the hoof of pan galloping and my writing "has never been so fucking crisp to the infinite and unobtainable realms of "ignotum per ignotius"...in irony..i'm at the end of my rope and i've just found out that there was no rope to begin with....i will enjoy this fall and cuz i was falling all along. there is no bottom, and yes my cilia are a little FUCKING sensetive. that is all, la belle dame sans merci.....<brought to you by 'futon' all you need to realy wear a shoe, and 'forked' why get fucked when you can get forked>?a