SupremeDreamer23 Jun 2003

Well, I know well enough your not Dark-Angel (cmon.. do i seem that thick to think that you are??) As for what you mentioned, your right about him, I already made my mind to simply ignore him like I would ignore some Christian convertist. I believe what you said of your past, but I was confused as to its intentions. As for boiling up Dhatura and shrooms .. ;) I won't bother doing a entheogenic listing of the shit I've ingested/smoked/snorted.

Whats burning in my fucking mind is this comment from your knot:

I won't even go into what happened when you dreamed your future because it's just too profound, but I will say it's the Disney land of dejavu. Also I don't know what decides 'chemically' on an internal level whether you astro projected and cruised unseen amongst the present, or whether you "future jumped".

Deep in the insomnia that claimed me as a child I would have visions... see.. my mother who caused me and my father lots of suffering (another story) would go insane if she found me anywhere out of bed from when i was sent to it until 9 am or so... so I'd lay there.. staring, without a damned thought.. I'd drift as physical reality broke down.. mind you I didn't astro travel or future jump per se.. but I'd simply observe reality rewarping around me.. and what i saw once in one of these happenings is a chaotic time storm (what ive decided to call it).

It looked like a tornado of technicolor dots at first... then the dots became something like telivision screens where i saw places, people, heard talking, screaming, thoughts.. it captured and hypnotized me.. i dont have much remembering of these vision states, but what i do remember is profound enough. I traveled it to the deepest center of its tormenting whirl and saw what i describe as a tree.. laying out perfectly before me I later figured out it was time itself.. i saw my future... and i didnt fucking like it.. so what did i do.. I CHANGED IT, Rearranged it and redreamed the fucking curse.

But.. HOW THE FUCK DO YOU KNOW OF WHAT I DID LAYING TORMENTED WHEN FOUR? hrmm.. not even my closet friend, not even my blessed father knew of these things.. i sense though that my mother may have had a clue.. but you? you struck my attention at first with your clever comments on other poems i read, delved into your work and found an amazing collection. I usually sense these things more clearly than i did when i followed course twards this.. the whole time i discovered, joined, and posted on this sight, dejavu was more fucking intense than ever, and im wondering "what oh what father time lays before me that can be so profound as to prick my mind" first the ass-mask, it gave me some enlightenment.. but the knot.. was like an explosion.