baphomet19 Nov 2003

because do to the fact of different changes and different birds on my window cill telling me different notions i think that i want to go back to hawaii.
1.i really miss my family.
2.some of my family members are about to pass off to a better place, but frankly i would like to see them before they do.
another reason i know that u will always be there and i can always find u.
u are strong and will live for many more years, but some of my other family wont.
i am grateful for every thing u hav done.
1.giving a job at daves for writing so i could earn a computer .
2. that u would always give my support and be proud of me when i would accomplish jobs.
3.i've learned all sorts of new things and skills on the computer and in life.
but i dont think i should grow up in a enviroment where every one wants a piece of me.
i know that u would protect me on every side but i also need protection from above and below.
even though that might not always be true most of the time theres a price for every thing.
i loved the stay and i will come back one day.
im grateful for the eye opener and the camera because im goning to be a photogropher for surfing and models in bikinis.lol
also i respect u and know that u would do the best for me.
any ways this poem was not about my mom nore my *cogh*daD even though he is an addict.and i dont want the proplems off an addict he is always some where other than by me so i know i would not see the addictive personality.
i dont enjoy seeing my family on speed=crystal horse=herion or snow=coke i dont care about the simple drugs as long as there no abused and not changing them.
i still hav hope for him lol
thank god mums stronger and still the iorn fist and the gently heart and healing hand.

im not going to live with my fassha im going to live in my house supervised by my aunt and family.
i dont care about all the glame an glits i love my mom even though she couldnt get me all those expensive toys but still she gave me the gift off travel.
im getting a stable education in hawaii and if bill wants me to get the best he can start a college fund.
i apperciate the love from all of u.
i'm thankful every one around me to show me the good the bad and the ugly.
"my mom has guided me to see this in my travcels" and and she loves both of us equally.
i dont feel scorned but if i have been it would have strengthen me.
the most powerful demi-god in the hawaiian belief is the worm.
well thank u for the feeling of always having a perch to go to in hollywood.
as r governator would say"i'll be back" and i will to model.
take a break from ur emac and come take a trip to hawaii.
oh im coming home to night see u then.
aloha
i gotta go the libary computer minutes is running out.
ciao la vella
mom loves u more then me so be nice she loves u so much she cries when ur not happy.
she misses her lion.

damn people never wanna hug a fish.
bye love u see u later.
latwes