6/11/04 11:10-11:15 AM

I did the impossible today I got out of the trap which I set for myself exactly 2 years ago I finally let you know that I am here and I do see you I hope you didn't think otherwise I still am shocked each second I reflect What did I do to you? god i'm so fucked up this whole time I had to lie when I could've been me all along Today felt really good I had to remember it I do not care if god's wonderful spouse hates me for it You did what I did Why didn't you just let me know Don't be like me This whole thing could've been avoided When I look back I fucking wonder why I did it But now that I'm finally free I will smash the chains which snared me inside I couldn't breathe my heart was beating way too fast I almost died but I knew I saw it in you Thank you for helping me save me I think I saved you too But from today on there will be much more less people to save