Negative

RIGHT NOW, IM SHAKING. RIGHT NOW, IM CRYING. RIGHT NOW I AM HEARING, ANOTHER DOOR SLAM SHUT. AND RIGHT NOW, ALL IM HOPING FOR IS, NEGATIVE, NEGATIVE, NEGATIVE! I DONT UNDESTAND, WHY DEATH HASNT COME YET. I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME. THIS IS NOT A SIMPLE TEST, IM THROWN. I WAS NAIVE FOR THINKING, THAT I CAN FIND LOVE, CAUSE I KNOW NOW THAT I AM, TOTALLY WRONG. IM JUST SO SCARED TO LOVE, AND SCARED TO BE SINGLE, I DONT KNOW WHY ITA NOT DEAD, AT LEAST THE DEAD DONT HAVE TO DEAL, WITH THESE ISSUES. ONE DAY I MIGHT WAKE UP AND, MAYBE THEN ILL KNOW. WHY IM ALONE. I BELIEVE WHAT I WANT TO, BUT NOW I KNOW, I HAVE RESTORED FAITH, IN FATE TURNING ITS BACK ON ME. IM ONLY HEARING, NEGATIVE NEGATIVE NEGATIVE! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!