A Hard Lesson Learned

God....... I've come to ask again, How long will it be I've leaned a lot since then god, I've learned a lot too late, And there's a lot I want to tell him Since that day, I've learned a lot, I'll tell you what I've leaned. Here it is god, the same thing I told you last night, And the night before, And the same I'll tell you tomorrow night. It feels like a thousand nights now he's gone, And every night my soul is tortured, And every night my heart is scared again, I have more agonizing times to think about My lesson learned. I think about all those nights and days we wasted In tears of sadness, Nights full of hateful words, And my stubbornness to be right, I've leaned, I won't waste anymore. I think of all the times i put off saying how I felt, Doing something special, Or just holding him a bit longer, And you showed me the errors of my ways, I've leaned, I wont be selfish anymore. I think of the emptiness in my life, Every time I think I feel him breath on my neck, Or think I smell him on my pillow, Or when I take a breath that feels empty and useless, I've leaned I wont take things for granted. I ask you again and again god, how long? Let him find truth, and help him