Fucking Lonely

You I am lonely again In shadow Looking up to your light So distant I would reach but fear the fall inevitably long Uncontrollably I look Can not return When I try now Too late Lacking courage I stand in place Frozen with fear Stupid emotions I thought I was above These stupid childish feelings Inabilities And lack of control No mater how old I'll never grow stable Emotional stumble Of self pity and hate Depression awaits Those who are weak Me