Why should i care to be here

Why should i care to be here? Nothing to be proud of in my life. All the shame of my wrong-doings Tears at me more and more. I wasn't always like this It happened when my soul left for you. I have seen past the happiness in life. All the words that i said i can't take back. I can't hold you Or tell you that i love you anymore. This brings me to my knees Crying for you to be there. I can't comfort you When someone brings you down And it shatters my heart. I can't stand the thing that ive become. My life is full of broken hearted misery and pain. Why should i care to be here?