why do i still love you

So much crap you put me through and still all i can think about is you i always thought you cared for me but there was a side of you i couldnt bare to see sitting there watching you hurt yourself and all the times i tried to help was only because i cared about you and your health all the nights i sat to think alone brought me to thoughts of you and just made me feel shallow and low every damn thing you said to me were nothing but lies you should be the one that i truly dispies i try my hardest to get you off my mind but you dont know how hard it is to leave you or our past behind i hate you so much and i cant belive its true but look who's the fool thats still in love with you.