My vow- My bond- My curse

A yearning deep within my soul A peircing pain within my chest Without you all I've known's gone cold I wish for you to give me rest You know about how I feel about you I've told you all there is to know But being around me's not enough You know what I need is more Your reason for your distance is valid And that makes it all the harder The relationship that I find loosely threaded Is the one I need bound tighter I promised I would wait for you No matter how long it would take If only my word weren't of so much value My word is bond- it shall not break But my very words are my curse It's what binds my to this pain Day by day my hurt grows worse I feel as though I've sworn in vain I feel for you like no other It's new.. even for me too Some things I feel I don't understand That's why my promise shall remain true So If you're worried if my vow shall break Your fears never shall be justified But the longer this vow shall remain The more pain and sorrow shall abide