I Wonder If

I Wonder If Death is better than this shitty ass life. Life seems to cut deep like a long cold knife. I wish Had it in me to understand How some things Just seem to control a man Wake up every morning and play your part At end of the day your drag down by a heavy heart You hope the script master has a different plan If not this may be your very last dance Sometimes we look for another way A way that can make us go astray wether through drugs or a drunken binge I hope you Can Forgive me God cause I know its a sin If i awake the next morning not in my bed I pray to God Im in heaven to rest my head I hope never have to feel this way again Im really scared to know how my life is going to end Though i shouldnt be scared cause i know where I been Would you want to start your life all over again?