On The Inside

I'm staring at the corner Thinking of things to complain about I don't know how to explain this And I can't let my anger out Always searching for myself I can't hide inside someone else I lost myself somewhere way back And I don't know how to get my life back on track No qualities that are redeeming to make up for my words lacking meaning And it's always seeming that no one's by my side My life's no roller coaster Just a straight line, getting slower I need someone to turn to Or something to boost my pride In my head I'm screaming Only happy when I'm dreaming I'm not beleiving That it's okay to live this way On the outside I'm smiling But inside I'm crying And I know that I'm lying to myself, the world, my pain