And what are PAKI's thoughts on religion? I bet they're stupid and wrong.

Actually I don't know very much about you. I do think that you are one of the few intelligent members of this site. I read your thoughts on religion and found them quite interesting. You stimulated my brain cells for a change. Define a street poem for me...a lot of people claim to be street poets? A white guy rapping...right. Take a regular martini and mix it up with olive juice (the salty water olives reside in) and you have my favorite drink...a dirty martini.

I thought you knew everything about me. I had a love affair with a bullet when I was livin' hard as a street poete on the mean streets of KC. I do not know what dirty martinis are?

Come down from what? Ahhhhhh...you've been having dirty martinis... Everclear...NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! You've had plastic surgery?????? Why???? I hope you're kidding.

No I am just trying to come down. And thanks to Horus8 I now have the sudden urge to listen to Everclear and go back down to the hood. Fuck, what was that. You will have to ask the writer of triangle poems in regards to the other question. I do not write in shapes, but I suppose there are those who do, and do it well, as she does.

So know you are trying to be a funny guy. I have a question for you...concrete poetry...is this something middle school kids only do, or is there serious concrete writing poets? I am serious, don't laugh at my ignorance.

Thank you. That's all I asked for. I respect you for what you just said. PS Everything I told you was the truth...I didn't tell you anything I thought you might want to hear.

No, just a crack head.

Are you an insomniac? What magzine or newspaper do you write for?

Down time. Quiet time. What people normally use the end of their year for. I have alot of responsiblity ahead of me this year, and i need my focus. You know i think you're great, and fun to be with, but i need to conscentrate more on my career, and less on my abilty to win my mother back. My last hurdles before i turn thirty in two years should be productive towards my creative needs and my family. Not being selfish with drugs, and succulent night caps. I have to choose my life and family, or the other. Sadly, you land in the other. I have been lying to myself about love, poetry, art and the need for my pain and loneliness to accompany that. You were dragged into my nightmare late, and thankfully so. before i knocked you up, or hurt those close to me with my selfishness. I'm sorry. You're free, and so am i. My bad dreaming ends now. I don't want to hurt myself or others anymore. Don't you get it. i've been sick for ten years. Sick of me. i live through others. Their interpretatations of me and what i mean to them. it's un-fucking-healthy. bad magic. It ends here. I'm sorry. i've lived likr rimbaud..now i need to just be jeremi. he's not so bad. i even have forgotten what i set out to prove with my rebellious revolution when i got out of prison and started doing drugs to begin with. it was all a selfish. egotistical lie, and i bit into it hook line sinker, slept with it, ate it, breathed it, but no more. i'm getting more comfortable being alone with myself these days. i'm regaining my will power, and instead of the heroin and the hot virgin..i'm going to choose my son, and my boston market girlfriend instead. See i'm not ashamed of who or what i am anymore. my family is giving me their support and love i need hands down, no questions asked. to help me with my drinking and drugs and whoring, and i think they finally deserve my attention and focus. For the love of christ..i deserve it and so do they, and you do too. Someone more available to you and your needs. It's night and day, so clear in front of me can't you see it. the future, i don't have to be miserable to perform or write. i don't need impressionable hotties telling me what i want to hear. i need to listen to myself, and grow the fuck up. and that's exactly what i'm doing.n

GO BEARS!!!!!!!!!!

Please...... You're a fool. We had something good going, but you didn't know how to handle it. Why can't you just fucking admit to the fact that yes, you like me...but you're caught in a weird situation. Recall a phone conversation....yeah,I can just see it now we'll be on a movie set and you'll be fucking my best friend because you don't know what fucking love is...right...and I'll leave Nadine and my son....shit..I don't know what the fuck I am doing. But you are childish....the way you're handling it is by being an ass to me in hopes of what??? pushing me way, making me hate you?

thanks.

Now you have. you can reverse the effects with a Deepak Chopra enima and a danish. Church works miracles too i've heard, and the patrons can be more supportive of your intimate needs. I, as you may already know, am uninterested by it all. A seal, only can be thrown so many times by an orca before the inevitable listlessness.w

Yes, the year has not been so kind. Fair enough. Tomorrow it will be the last of it. Clear the trail.

I like this site and will use it..thanks for turning me onto it. Oh, but you saw us having a future a month ago? Come on, all I asked was that you were honest with me. Why couldn't you tell me exactly what was going on? I think I deserve that you know.

i don't think that's a very appropriate question mr. k. As a peer, and a friend (outside of our high art fan rousing) let's not instigate this one..it's not good karma. i'm already coming off of a bad year..i really don't feel like reliving it. trust me. thanks.y